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Come 1 May, 2.30am. The race will begin for liverpool and chelsea to fight for every chance to score so that they can be in the finals of the UEFA Champions League. Man U is already in. It’s amazing how the English Clubs are doing so well at the Champions League.

I am personally a liverpool fan but over the years that support has greatly decimated as now many of the players are from spain. Call me a purist. My fav player is still steven gerard no matter how many goals torres had scored. To me, English club must consist of English players, if not 100% at least 80%. I despise commercialism and hence I despise Chelsea (don’t stone me, chelsea fans). They are so defaced that makes them hardly recognizable as a English Club albeit the presence of Frank Lampard as Captain.

Let it be a liverpool and man u final. All the best to Liverpool at Stamford Bridge!

Haha. No no. I’m not blogging about the movie “the Banquet” which is a super boring and slow show by Zhang Yimou.

There’s a chinese saying that goes, “Every Banquet comes to an end”. It’s true. Ben and Lilian will be leaving for the itinerant ministry. It’s a happy thing because I know it’s the arena where Ben is most called to by God, it’s sad because they are leaving. At the youth meeting where a farewell took place, listening to the song written by Lilian brought back many memories. It’s as if the whole 10 years of ministry, friendship and toil played back right before me. The number of people who came back for this farewell revealed the number of lives they have touched. Thank God. It’s not by might nor by power but by His Spirit.

As they journey on with God, stepping out of the boat and walk by faith. I’m sure God will use them to touch even more lives out there. My prayers and blessing go with them.

I have 2 life principles I live on. One, be real as a person. Two, live life without regrets. I hate regrets because there’s nothing you can do about it. ”I should have contacted my friend long ago before he/she had this accident” or “I should have been there for him/her” or “I should have been more loving”. To me, life is about the moment now. What do I do with this day? It’s so easy to be caught up with the future, the brighter side of now when the moment has to be seized and lived.

Carpe Diem – Seize the Day and more accurately it meant “harvest the day”. What do I harvest at the end of the day ? Regrets? No, I want to know that I have lived to day, to my best ability. It’s not a question of worth and value, it’s about whether have I done what I am supposed to do and what is expected of me.

Everybody has different life’s philosophies and we are all wired differently. Even the way God speaks to different people is different with individuals. Does that make God different? No. It just the way He speaks so that the individual understands Him.

Sometimes I feel lonely in this journey. Will I make it? The first thing that came to me was, I surrender to Him and I won’t struggle with myself or anybody else. I let God be God and only time will reveal my truest intentions. I do not like to facade under a mask but was recently ‘accused’ of doing so. It’s hard but it surely better today than yesterday.

I just know that we have a commission and I want to love, trust and obey.

I ‘learn’ something ‘new’ everyday. What do u make up of when someone says “nothing much is done” by xx. If I inteprete it literally, “nothing much is done” means that nothing signficant is done. However, I have ‘learned’ that “nothing much is done” also mean that “something is done but not enough”. Could it also mean “nothing significant/of worth/of value is done”. How can “nothing” be trying to convey ”something” in the first place? If “nothing much is done” does not mean ‘nothing significant is done’ but ’something is done but not enough’, could it have been conveyed more appropriately. If I am to say, nothing much is done, am I saying that something is done but not enough? If I am saying that something is done but not enough, I would not say nothing much is done. Because something is not nothing.

Words can be wrangled but intentions cannot. I hope that there will be a brighter tomorrow.

Seasons tell the time of life. It prepares nature to go to a natural rest. It tells the animals, the birds, go somewhere else if this season has proven to harsh on you. It’s time to migrate.

Show me what season am I in now…

I thought that principles cuts through time, space and people?

One important ‘principle’ I learn today is this: “Leaders have to make the decision with pure motive, what people want to accuse later on is up to them”

This is one principle that might be applied to someone soon. This person would be told to take a break for a while in view of circumstances but this principle would not be applied to another person who has been stalling a situation for a while because he/she needs to consult some of his members. Why don’t apply the leadership principle in this situation?

Aren’t principles suppose to be applied across all board if they are principles in the first place. It makes me question a lot. When the situation might threaten the integrity of some, the law must come into the picture but when the situation is not volatile, the ’spirit’ has to be applied.

I wonder again.